Trust, promises and love
As you grow up whatever morals and beliefs you obtain, are all due to those around you, family, friends, environment. I seem to find that when I deal with the everyday life, I am constantly in awe as to what other people find moraly right or wrong. My heart gets torn in one very important aspect of life, which deals with my morals and values. Trust.
Yes, trust has become a big issue for me, since it is my belief that without trust, then lies would not exist. How does one then find themselves in a position where they can't really trust someone but they cannot really walk away from them?
I am a firm believer where if you make a promise, it should be honored. No excuses. But yet 50% of marriages end up in divorce. Do people really take their promises to eachother for granted? Or is it something that should be "I promise for the moment"? To me, my word is my honor. If you break your promise, then I cannot depend on you. If I can't depend on you, I cannot trust you. If I cannot trust you....why should I even talk to you?
The heart gets in the way at times. You believe in someone, you trust them. Yet they take their promises lightly and break them. How can you possibly walk away from the one person you love? And what holds you back? Is it the promise of change? Or is it just plain simple love? So you find yourself in that same position where promises are made and broken. Love holds you back, while your whole life tells you to go. What do you listen to? Your heart or your soul?
Because of the lack to trust in someone, one set pattern will happen. You will go from complete blind love, to shock. like you can't believe that someone can just take your trust in them and step on it. From there you move on to depression, which is where you have opened your eyes and realized that the other person honestly doesn't value your trust in them and it hurts, which in return turns to anger because you feel misled and most people who get hurt lash out in anger, and then resentment because you feel that of all people why did they have to pick you to toy around with, and finaly hate. You hate them for lieing to you. You hate them for wasting your time. You just plain simple hate them.
Yet in spite of all signs, one cannot help themselves. For in every promise lies in it self a promise that things will change and with each passing stage, there is a belief and trust that everything will be alright in the end. And so you lie to yourself.
Yes, trust has become a big issue for me, since it is my belief that without trust, then lies would not exist. How does one then find themselves in a position where they can't really trust someone but they cannot really walk away from them?
I am a firm believer where if you make a promise, it should be honored. No excuses. But yet 50% of marriages end up in divorce. Do people really take their promises to eachother for granted? Or is it something that should be "I promise for the moment"? To me, my word is my honor. If you break your promise, then I cannot depend on you. If I can't depend on you, I cannot trust you. If I cannot trust you....why should I even talk to you?
The heart gets in the way at times. You believe in someone, you trust them. Yet they take their promises lightly and break them. How can you possibly walk away from the one person you love? And what holds you back? Is it the promise of change? Or is it just plain simple love? So you find yourself in that same position where promises are made and broken. Love holds you back, while your whole life tells you to go. What do you listen to? Your heart or your soul?
Because of the lack to trust in someone, one set pattern will happen. You will go from complete blind love, to shock. like you can't believe that someone can just take your trust in them and step on it. From there you move on to depression, which is where you have opened your eyes and realized that the other person honestly doesn't value your trust in them and it hurts, which in return turns to anger because you feel misled and most people who get hurt lash out in anger, and then resentment because you feel that of all people why did they have to pick you to toy around with, and finaly hate. You hate them for lieing to you. You hate them for wasting your time. You just plain simple hate them.
Yet in spite of all signs, one cannot help themselves. For in every promise lies in it self a promise that things will change and with each passing stage, there is a belief and trust that everything will be alright in the end. And so you lie to yourself.
posted by Nurse at 1:23 AM
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